The past isn't what it used to be

Lately I have been getting little messages in my head; little feelings that the past is fluid. We can change the past as easy as we change the future.

This week in NewScientist magazine was an article explaining Stephen Hawking's theory about how the universe behaves like quantum particles. As I understand it, our universe has every possible history. Everything that could ever be in a zillion parallel universes all exist superimposed on each other. Like Schrodenger’s dead and alive cat, any set of conflicting details resolve into one reality only when it is observed.

Our history is only what we observe. Every other history is just as possible, and just as real.
I bet this is telling us something about manifesting.

Permaculture economy

My family and co-workers have been attending classes to learn permaculture. We are being taught how to group plants to help each other; about the importance of observation; about diversity and robustness of life on the edge of two environments; about plant connections; about redundancy; about leverage points to get maximum effect from minimal change.

After a week of contemplation, we started realizing that these are all basic economic lessons too. What can we learn by analogies between economics, entrepreneurship, and permaculture?

Silver Dental Checkup

This was the day my curious experimental side has been waiting for. I was actually looking forward to this checkup. Afterwards, I realized that it turned out very much like many other manifesting projects lately. It went exactly like I imagined the best outcome would be.

The dental hygenist who cleaned my teeth was marveling that she hadn't seen a mouth this clean in some time. My gums had never looked so good. Poking and proding revealed no bleeding. The perodontal pockets actually shrunk in size to a very healthy range. The roots were cleaner and smoother than they had ever been. She was afraid if everyone came in like this, she would be out of a job. She told me that whatever I was doing, I should keep it up.

Then I told her about my silver ion injector, and that I tried it on my teeth and gums when a tooth seemed to be rotting. The tooth stopped smelling bad and the pain went away when I rubbed it with the silver ion injector. So we x-rayed the tooth and there was no sign of any problem with it. The dentist figured that the pain and smell might have been caused by food trapped between my teeth, (but I floss that particular trouble spot after almost every meal).

With the very healthy gums and the healthy tooth, the dental hygenist was impressed. The dentist seemed too busy to hear the whole story, but I bet it will bounce around his office for a while.

Catching up

Last week must have been more draining to us than we realized. Friday night Lynn and I cancelled our plans and slept. Sunday we did the same thing, we cancelled plans and slept the first two thirds of the day. In my sleep, I continue to process what we learned last week.

Now we are feeling relatively good, and ready to tackle the week.

A very merry re-birth day

The last x number of years have been very tough on Cat’s self image. The last 30 days at Hazelden has brought to the forefront just how poor and how important that self image is. The good part is that every expert we talked to just loves Cat. They even want her to come back and work there, after the required 2 year wait.

Tomorrow evening we take Cat to her next home in Rochester. The plan is for her to stay there in continuing care for a month or three. When a spot opens up at the halfway house in Fargo, she will move there. Then she can have her baby with her. Both places will help her get jobs and save some money.

Today she had a parent pass to go out with us for 4 hours. Lynn chose to take her to a spa. Cat got her hair trimmed and highlighted, manicure, pedicure, and “natural” makeup. She was getting so many treatments that one of the ladies there asked if it was her birthday.
We replied; “Sort of. It is her RE-BIRTHDAY.”
And that is what it feels like.

We have had some amazingly candid and truthful talk (facilitated by new attitudes, knowledge and skills recently learned by all of us). This is the birth of a new person and a new relationship. I really hope this new person continues to live and grow. I hope we can keep that level of truth in our future dialog.

Cat has a long hard road ahead of her, and she is willing to tackle it, even the parts she doesn’t like. It is important that she understands that we, her family, still love and care. We won’t always spoil her or help her out of jams, but we are very happy to have this new, honest and struggling person in our clan.
We love you Cat!

School days

Today we just finished day 2 of a four day training session for parents at Hazelden. We are learning all about the different classes of drugs and how they interact with the brain. We are also learning how the disease of addiction sucks every family member into it. The family needs to heal as much as the addict.

We are learning that most of the behavior patterns that parents fall into don’t help the addict. They usually just make the parents obsessive and wear the parents out. The big lesson for parents turns out to be… Non attachment to the outcome.

It seems that non attachment to the outcome has to be one of the most important principles that every spiritual guru teaches. I thought that Hazelden explained it rather well. They called it “Letting Go”. They had a whole page of insights about what letting go is and is not.
At the very end, they summed it up with…

Letting go is to fear less and to love more.

Chicken flu?

Springtime is a great time for viruses. There is a particularly catchy one going around here. It makes most people only mildly sick, so they keep going to work and school and passing it around.

As I was nursing a sore throat, I couldn't help wondering how much extra I would worry about it if we had chickens. The media likes to have us worry. It sells.